Girl Gang Sheffield asked me to submit a self-portrait for their exhibition in Town. I really struggled with the self-portrait concept and using myself as a subject because it’s been really weird to see my body go from one thing into something completely different entirely.
My self-concept previous to getting pregnant was that I was slim and perky. I didn’t really ever think about the way I looked, but I enjoyed dressing up and feeling attractive. I felt sexy sometimes and I enjoyed that. Ok sometimes I felt really sexy.
It’s really hard to feel sexy, or even feel like you are a regular member of society when you’re pregnant. I sort of feel like I’ve gone back to a non-sexual child like state. Pregnant ladies can be cute, and while I feel inside like I am the most adult and womanly I’ve ever been, I certainly look a little silly. Especially when I try and walk at speed. My husband and I have tried to keep up a romantic relationship throughout, but in these last days (8 months +) I think he’s lost interest, particularly as you can visibly see the baby moving quite frequently.
So if I feel so weird why did I decide to exhibit a set of not only pregnant self-portraits, but nude pregnant self-portraits to an exhibition that all my friends (and some not so friends) went to? And why do I post it online? Well, I am a big believer that self-portraits shouldn’t be about looking nice or sexy but they should be a good document about how you’re feeling inside. In this case, they really are just a document of how I looked at 7 months pregnant. I’m not so sure how they went down at the exhibition but I’m glad I have them for my own personal work.
Thanks to everyone who came to the exhibition to support me.